Xplore CrossFit believes in sucking a little less

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I spent the past week in Los Angeles completing some continuing education. I’ve been doing CrossFit for almost a decade now, so I thought I would push my mind, and my body in a completely new direction. I am taking an indoor cycling instructor course with Flywheel. It is pushing me harder than I thought it would. It is more challenging, more technical, and more fun than I thought it would be. And there has been a lot more crying among the 14 attendees than I expected. I am included in the group of criers, but it wasn’t because of the difficulty of the training or the incredibly challenging feedback. One instructor played “Never Grow Up” by Alyssa Golden and I almost had to leave the room to go Facetime with Charlie and Sam. No shame. Straight up weeping on the bike in the back row. Ugh. Anyhow, it has been an amazing journey and I am learning things about teaching a class and leading a group that will translate not only into CrossFit, but also into managing employees and parenting. During one of my sessions leading the group, the master instructor turned the lights on, told me to stop, start over, and fix my intro. I started over and about 30 seconds later he did it again. I started over and 30 seconds later the lights came back on and I was sent out of the room to practice by myself. Tough. I like to win. I like to be the best at stuff. I am smart, reasonably talented, decent to look at when I lay off the cake, and what I heard was “could you suck a little less?” In fact I even said it out loud. The teaching staff jumped all over it, chastising me for using such negative self-talk. It was strange to be on the other side of the desk. I am usually the one giving feedback. I am the instructor, the leader, the motivator, and chief chastiser. I am the one who pushes people for more, accepts whatever they have to offer as long as it is their best. I am the one who doesn’t allow negative self talk and here I was criticizing myself, when what was really being asked of me was to take hold of an opportunity to achieve excellence and set myself up for genuine success. Your inner dialogue is powerful and you can choose how you will wield that power. I spent the next hour counting. Alicia Keys, Eminem, Limp Bizkit, and on and on and on. Not a terrible way to spend an afternoon, but it was training nonetheless. It made me think of every time someone comes up to me after class and asks me how to get better at double unders or snatching. Reps. Lots and lots of reps. And the ability to stay in a mental space that recognizes not being where we want to be right now does not have any impact on our value and worth and every missed rep that doesn’t break us moves us closer to the goal.

2 Comments on “Xplore CrossFit believes in sucking a little less”

  1. Love this. So proud of you for continuing to grow personally and professionally. I’ll see you this week at 1:15 on Thursday in your first training class. Looking forward to it. You’re going to do awesome.

  2. Love this. So proud of you for continuing to grow personally and professionally. I’ll see you this week at 1:15 on Thursday in your first training class. Looking forward to it. You’re going to do awesome. PattyB

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